Well.... the weight isnt really moving at the moment - i have good days and bad days so i guess they're cancelling each other out - which rather sux hahaha. Had pizza for tea last night - i blame mum, she suggested it and i have no willpower to say no. Have been out in the backyard with peyton today though and been on the bike for a bit - and basically hadnt eaten all day except for a few scones at 1pm so hopefully it all balances out. Have a weigh in tomorrow with the dietician at the hospital - hopefully it's better than the 1kg i lost last time in a month ahahah!
Still taking the duromine - it hasnt really kicked in since i took a break from it - im still really tired and dont feel like i have extra energy - only thing it really is helping with is appetite - i dont really have one!
sounds stupid - but honestly they say u have to eat to lose weight otherwise ur body holds onto wotever u eat right? but umm - anorexic ppl are SKINNY - and they dont eat - so i assume i'd have to get REALLY skinny for my body to hold onto everything i eat - up until then it shud just start to eat itself.. RIGHT!? haha
friends - well i cant say that's going well. have lost a few lately. before i would put up with anything because i just wanted to have people around me and wanted friends - now i honestly think life is too short to be unhappy - id rather have no friends than crappy ones who put me down and piss me off! so yeah - lost a few 'long term' friends and then just a couple of new ones who weren't really who i thought they would be - but life goes on. onwards and upwards and all that - i just really want to concentrate on me and my journey (and peyton of course) so if that makes me a selfish bitch - so be it. i want to be happy. i DESERVE to be happy. im GOING to be happy.
for those of you who know about Kyah (the little girl with cancer) she honestly has had a rather profound effect on my life. especially with the life is too short to waste it on petty crap. none of us know how long we have - live life - love life - love living!
final note. NATIONAL SUX! poor Aunty Helen *wails*
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