Well ive decided to try and start blogging again - to remind myself why it is im doing this. I dont even know when i last blogged but SO MUCH has probably happened that i'd be here for a week trying to update everyone.
love life - kinda sux - been with Greg 7 months now but it's not really going anywhere. have been ups and downs - lots of ups in the first 3 months - not so much now. He's really busy at work and constantly tired and just never seems to have enough time for me. and stupid me is letting him get away with it and just being drip feed a few hours here or there to keep me content (which i am not by the way). But alas im not ready to give him up - i think it would be alot worse to be alone at the moment so for now i shall keep trucking along.
The weight - well since i started my ""diet"" back in August 08 with the dietician i have now lost nearly 20kgs - i guess i shud update that weight tracker thingee i think it's disappeared. its hard though - the scales at the gym say ive already lost 20 - whereas my scales at home say its 19 LOL - so i'll just go with the nearly 20kgs so i can push myself. Havent been doing that great over the last few weeks - probably why i need to blog again - went on like a 2 week run of kfc for 5 days straight and total junkfest and only going to the gym like 3 times.
but my lovely friend emma gave me a much needed kick up the ass over the last few days and reminded me how far i've come and how stupid it would be to stop now when im finally getting to see results - ive gone down 2 sizes already - and i just cant wait to down more - it is definately great to be able to buy new clothes - but when i look in the mirror i dont see any difference - cept maybe my face is a bit thinner and im losing my boobs - but where it counts - my arms and my thighs - theyre my trouble spots - makes it hard to wear smaller clothes when theyre tight in the thighs but baggy and falling off my ass and my waist :( ive started wearing my pregnancy belly bands again just to keep my pants up ahahah
i dont really know where my motivation went or why - prolly all tied up in greg again. as some of you know i got really depressed when all the crap with him went down - im on antidepressants now - but the bonus to them is the loss of appetite! i can gladly and easily only eat one meal a day and be fine - but my trainer (yes thats right i have a personal trainer now) has told me that all im doing is screwing my metabolism so i have to force myself to eat.
decided today that maybe id have brekkie - maybe a protein shake or a yoghurt n fruit or something - then a protein bar after the gym - then have a big lunch like a stirfry or wraps - then fruit or protein something in the avo - then a meal replacement shake for tea - coz im really not hungry at night - its nearly 9pm and ive just had a bit of stirfry n rice because im trying to eat my meals for the day - but i could easily have gone to bed without eating anything.
today ive been good - i went to the gym and did cardio and weights for 90mins - then had a protein bar - then for lunch i had 2 wraps with lettuce and chicken in them - and then for tea ive had stirfry chicken and vege with brown rice. so okay i didnt exactly get my 5 or 6 small meals in today - but its better than the giant load of kfc for lunch and nothing else for the whole day! small steps!
anyway this will be the first of many so i wont bleat it all out tonight. let's just say that im on track - losing the pounds - and am more than a quarter done to where i need to be - so better hurry up and get those last 3/4's off me - coz by xmas next year - i wanna be HOT!
xxx
tracker
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Almost at first mini goal!
YAY 9kgs lost in 6 weeks - that's awesome! *does a little dance*
Well my friend popped her baby so ive been spending time up at the hospital with her and new baby Zak - but shes home now :) i didnt go to the gym for FIVE DAYS in a row- that was so bad - and i honesty had like a blow out of junk food it was crazy - but ive still lost weight yay! so as at today 18th february - since starting my diet on january 4th it's 9kgs down. cant wait to get over the 10kg hump and keep going - then maybe i'll be able to see a difference! at the mo basically i think my face is a little thinner and i have less boobies ahhaha and the thighs have gone down a little - but yeah most of it i just know coz my pants are falling down and its just my fat ass that's holding them up LMAO.
went back to the gym yesterday - it kinda hurt LOL - and was meant to go this morning but i forgot PAFT was coming for missy so guess i'll go later - it's mums day off so hopefully she will watch her for a bit so i can go - or else dorkhead donor is coming this avo so i can just go then - it just makes it way harder to go in the avo coz its hot and ur already tired - i like to go before i eat anything too.
anyways - where are my girls? i still see no blogs from u guys! but yay star for blogging again! looking forward to getting back on the "journey" with you!
Well my friend popped her baby so ive been spending time up at the hospital with her and new baby Zak - but shes home now :) i didnt go to the gym for FIVE DAYS in a row- that was so bad - and i honesty had like a blow out of junk food it was crazy - but ive still lost weight yay! so as at today 18th february - since starting my diet on january 4th it's 9kgs down. cant wait to get over the 10kg hump and keep going - then maybe i'll be able to see a difference! at the mo basically i think my face is a little thinner and i have less boobies ahhaha and the thighs have gone down a little - but yeah most of it i just know coz my pants are falling down and its just my fat ass that's holding them up LMAO.
went back to the gym yesterday - it kinda hurt LOL - and was meant to go this morning but i forgot PAFT was coming for missy so guess i'll go later - it's mums day off so hopefully she will watch her for a bit so i can go - or else dorkhead donor is coming this avo so i can just go then - it just makes it way harder to go in the avo coz its hot and ur already tired - i like to go before i eat anything too.
anyways - where are my girls? i still see no blogs from u guys! but yay star for blogging again! looking forward to getting back on the "journey" with you!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
yep im still alive!
Well i havent blogged for a bit - and it seems neither have my girls *glares* hehe - i am at a plateau apparently - havent lost weight in a week - so im rather depressed but not letting it stop me - have still been going to the gym - and now instead of just cruising on the bike and x-trainer i do interval training which is SO MUCH HARDER but yeah - hopefully suddenly 2kgs will just drop from my ass and i'll be back on track. im wondering if it's the pill (ive started taking the pill after like 6 years not on it) and i specifically said to the dr i didnt want one that wud make me gain weight - ive been back to the dr again but he's said to give it a month - which i will do - but if in that month i havent lost anything (even if i havent gained) i will be looking at getting something different - as quite frankly - losing my ass is more important than getting laid hahaha - and zee man knows that and he's ok with that and will work "with me" so we are both happy. so yay that's good.
life is good - im super happy getting to know "zee man" and he's just absolutely adorable and supportive and yeah - definately makes me feel special so it makes it easier to "stick" to my diet haha - not that i wasnt going to anyways but yeah - i want him to be proud of me. (which he is already but u know wot i mean haha)
i dont think ive been eating enough tho - ive been feeling really sick and thought maybe i might have a UTI but nup dr said no - and yesterday i was SO LIGHT HEADED cooking tea mum had to finish it off so i cud sit down. so im eating a yoghurt now for brekkie and gunna eat lots of fruit today and a sandwich for lunch etc. making corned beef and veges for tea tonight.
my miss bonita has been in the hospital for 3 days so ive been spending lots of time with her up there - shes having a bubba - well - meant to be hehehe - hopefully today things will get moving! im so excited to get newborn cuddles!
come on girls - update ya blogs n let me know how ur doing
xxxx much love!
life is good - im super happy getting to know "zee man" and he's just absolutely adorable and supportive and yeah - definately makes me feel special so it makes it easier to "stick" to my diet haha - not that i wasnt going to anyways but yeah - i want him to be proud of me. (which he is already but u know wot i mean haha)
i dont think ive been eating enough tho - ive been feeling really sick and thought maybe i might have a UTI but nup dr said no - and yesterday i was SO LIGHT HEADED cooking tea mum had to finish it off so i cud sit down. so im eating a yoghurt now for brekkie and gunna eat lots of fruit today and a sandwich for lunch etc. making corned beef and veges for tea tonight.
my miss bonita has been in the hospital for 3 days so ive been spending lots of time with her up there - shes having a bubba - well - meant to be hehehe - hopefully today things will get moving! im so excited to get newborn cuddles!
come on girls - update ya blogs n let me know how ur doing
xxxx much love!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
February 1st - 7.2kgs lost!
Well i know i didnt "start" the diet till 4th jan but i think i'll go by months now anyways. So yes - official "first month" on diet weigh in - 7.2kgs lost!!! OMG i think i might cry hahaha. of course hindsight is a beautiful thing - coz it hasnt really been all that hard, so guess it makes ya wonder why i didnt stick to it before. oh well - i guess it just wasnt my time - and now it is! 2009 baby - it's MY year!
i was feeling a bit sorry for myself yesterday - but i didnt eat anything bad - in fact - i didnt eat bahahah - well not much anyways - i got home at 1.30am and peyton woke me up at 5.45am so i was buggered and she just whinged and cried all day long so i just left her to mum and i went back to bed at 12 - 2. then i ate 3 plums. took peyton for a drive out to oakura and up through puekeiti and back round - took ages - least she didnt whinge in the car so that was a good thing - after driving round it was 5pm so went and got kebabs for me and mum for tea - so thats all i ate yesterday, 3 plums and a kebab. im super proud that even though i felt like ass i didnt eat extra like i usually would - but prolly not great to "starve" either - although i honestly wasnt hungry.
anyways today will be a good day - am going to take peyton to pouakai zoo today so will get a bit of a walk around there - although it looks cloudy so hopefully it wont rain.
havent been to the gym at all this weekend - but i honestly think my body needs a rest too as ive still lost weight over the weekend.
will get back into the gym tomorrow morning :D
i was feeling a bit sorry for myself yesterday - but i didnt eat anything bad - in fact - i didnt eat bahahah - well not much anyways - i got home at 1.30am and peyton woke me up at 5.45am so i was buggered and she just whinged and cried all day long so i just left her to mum and i went back to bed at 12 - 2. then i ate 3 plums. took peyton for a drive out to oakura and up through puekeiti and back round - took ages - least she didnt whinge in the car so that was a good thing - after driving round it was 5pm so went and got kebabs for me and mum for tea - so thats all i ate yesterday, 3 plums and a kebab. im super proud that even though i felt like ass i didnt eat extra like i usually would - but prolly not great to "starve" either - although i honestly wasnt hungry.
anyways today will be a good day - am going to take peyton to pouakai zoo today so will get a bit of a walk around there - although it looks cloudy so hopefully it wont rain.
havent been to the gym at all this weekend - but i honestly think my body needs a rest too as ive still lost weight over the weekend.
will get back into the gym tomorrow morning :D
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Friday 30th January - 6.3kgs down in 26 days!
WOOT WOOT - on the scales this morning and ive now lost 6.3kgs - im STOKED! now i know previously ive lost like 4kgs in a week - but its just no sustainable and i always put it back on - so hopefully "slow and steady wins the race" and i'll get there this time! im still way ahead of my goal (of 5kgs a month) and still 5 more days in my "month" coz i didnt start the diet till 4th january.
yesterday was "technically" a bad day - coz i ate like hardly anything - i didnt get home till lunchtime and by the time i got peyton her lunch and put her to bed then looked in the fridge - there was like nothing to eat - so i had 2 plums. i went out in the avo to go to dads and stopped at a bakery (at3pm) and there were no sandwiches only pies, so i looked at the bridge pies and thought... NO ANDREA.. and went to another bakery - no sandwiches there either so i just got a plain bun and ate that. then i had sweet n sour pork on rice for tea last night. and thats it. and an hour and a half at the gym in the morning haha whoops.
the day before yesterday (wednesday) i didnt go to the gym coz i thought id let mum have a sleep in - yeah well turns out she was up anyways watching tv - grrr - and i honestly felt like CRAP the whole day coz i didnt go - no motivation at all and went to mcds and got a seared chicken burger!!!!!!!! i didnt think it wud be THAT BAD coz the chicken is the same as wots in a deli roll - but yeah i felt really stink about it - and thats all i ate all day until dinner where i had a salad. but im positive i wudnt have even eaten that if i had been to the gym!
i cant go tomorrow coz i have to clean nanas house 2morrow so thats going to suck - but mum has the weekend off so i may be able to go in the avo or sunday morning anyways.
hopefully going to the zoo in the weekend so can walk all around there and will get on the bike or something.
so all in all things are going well - my fitness has greatly improved, my frame of mind is positive - i have heaps more energy and my eating is good - so YAY!
onwards and upwards! (well downwards on the scale hehe)
yesterday was "technically" a bad day - coz i ate like hardly anything - i didnt get home till lunchtime and by the time i got peyton her lunch and put her to bed then looked in the fridge - there was like nothing to eat - so i had 2 plums. i went out in the avo to go to dads and stopped at a bakery (at3pm) and there were no sandwiches only pies, so i looked at the bridge pies and thought... NO ANDREA.. and went to another bakery - no sandwiches there either so i just got a plain bun and ate that. then i had sweet n sour pork on rice for tea last night. and thats it. and an hour and a half at the gym in the morning haha whoops.
the day before yesterday (wednesday) i didnt go to the gym coz i thought id let mum have a sleep in - yeah well turns out she was up anyways watching tv - grrr - and i honestly felt like CRAP the whole day coz i didnt go - no motivation at all and went to mcds and got a seared chicken burger!!!!!!!! i didnt think it wud be THAT BAD coz the chicken is the same as wots in a deli roll - but yeah i felt really stink about it - and thats all i ate all day until dinner where i had a salad. but im positive i wudnt have even eaten that if i had been to the gym!
i cant go tomorrow coz i have to clean nanas house 2morrow so thats going to suck - but mum has the weekend off so i may be able to go in the avo or sunday morning anyways.
hopefully going to the zoo in the weekend so can walk all around there and will get on the bike or something.
so all in all things are going well - my fitness has greatly improved, my frame of mind is positive - i have heaps more energy and my eating is good - so YAY!
onwards and upwards! (well downwards on the scale hehe)
Monday, January 26, 2009
depressing!
Right so fark knows what day im up to hahah - basically all i eat is plums, bread and tea so u can pretty much slot those in on every day LOL. ive weighed myself for the last 4 days - i went down 300 grams, then up 300 grams, then down 300, then up 300, etc etc etc *sighs* so i just dont know what else i can do! i havent lost anything for FOUR DAYS - which is unusual. ive been to the gym EVERYDAY and ive been eating like jack all! (but this is nothing new so my body shudnt be "hording" the food or anything) so have decided to cut down on the carbs. today all i ate was 3 plums, a seared chicken wrap from mcds and then had a salad for tea (lettuce, carrots, tiny bit of cheese) and beef and onions on top with a bit of lite sour cream. so if i have bread for lunch i cant have potatos or rice or noodles or wraps for tea - but if i dont then i can haha.
so we'll see.
worked farkn hard this morning at the gym tho - and it was hot in there too - and my muscles were just BUGGERED so i sweated like a farkn PIG! my towel was saturated and my top was sticking to my back and it was just YUCK!! wanted to quit lots of times and go home coz my legs were killing me but i didnt. wud have felt worse tomorrow if i had gained again than just doing the blardy work out.
so off tonight to watch a dvd at greg's, yay for time away from lil missy!
so we'll see.
worked farkn hard this morning at the gym tho - and it was hot in there too - and my muscles were just BUGGERED so i sweated like a farkn PIG! my towel was saturated and my top was sticking to my back and it was just YUCK!! wanted to quit lots of times and go home coz my legs were killing me but i didnt. wud have felt worse tomorrow if i had gained again than just doing the blardy work out.
so off tonight to watch a dvd at greg's, yay for time away from lil missy!
Friday, January 23, 2009
Friday 23rd January
Right so i went to the gym yesterday to work out my sore as muscles - put peyton in the gym daycare - yeah - she lasted 30 mins so i only got to do 30 mins of cardio - but better than nothing right! was going to go back in the avo once mum got home but my legs were sore as crap so i didnt end up going.
Although this morning (saturday) they feel heaps better - am debating texting donor and asking him to have her for an hour or so, so i can go to the gym - coz mums working and linda's climbing up half the blardy mountain. how inconvenient these people having lives when i need help LOL. dunno will decide soon - might just take p for a walk in the pushchair and then go on the bike when shes asleep - then i dont need to ask donor for help. but i know me - and i know i will just be like - awww nah to the walk and the bike so its better just to get an hour at the gym!
what i ate yesterday:
2 plums, 1 chicken sandwich, 5 potato chips (eek), 2 mandarins, 1 kebab.
went out last night and was offered alcohol 3 times! haha - but i said no 1) coz i was driving 2) coz im on duromine and wuda got sloshed and 3) too many blardy calories in booze!!
so i got on the scales when i got up this morning and i have lost another 700grams since yesterday so *dum de dum dum* ive lost 5KGS! *hoots and hollers and prances around all proud* im so happy! the hard working is really paying off - just cant wait to "see" results! although im sure my boobs are shrinking - the bra i bought from sara ezibuy store in queensgate is getting baggy in the cups :( bugga that was expensive LOL!
have a good weekend girls! lots of exercise and moderate eating!
xxx
Although this morning (saturday) they feel heaps better - am debating texting donor and asking him to have her for an hour or so, so i can go to the gym - coz mums working and linda's climbing up half the blardy mountain. how inconvenient these people having lives when i need help LOL. dunno will decide soon - might just take p for a walk in the pushchair and then go on the bike when shes asleep - then i dont need to ask donor for help. but i know me - and i know i will just be like - awww nah to the walk and the bike so its better just to get an hour at the gym!
what i ate yesterday:
2 plums, 1 chicken sandwich, 5 potato chips (eek), 2 mandarins, 1 kebab.
went out last night and was offered alcohol 3 times! haha - but i said no 1) coz i was driving 2) coz im on duromine and wuda got sloshed and 3) too many blardy calories in booze!!
so i got on the scales when i got up this morning and i have lost another 700grams since yesterday so *dum de dum dum* ive lost 5KGS! *hoots and hollers and prances around all proud* im so happy! the hard working is really paying off - just cant wait to "see" results! although im sure my boobs are shrinking - the bra i bought from sara ezibuy store in queensgate is getting baggy in the cups :( bugga that was expensive LOL!
have a good weekend girls! lots of exercise and moderate eating!
xxx
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